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Sunday, December 19, 2010

Christmas!!!

Every year I get to December and when I'm done worrying about finals and whatever else is going on, I say to myself, I want this Christmas to be different. How many "different" Christmases can I have? Every year I want to keep Christ at the center of my Christmas, and every year, it seems that that is more and more the case. That doesn't mean that my Christmases past weren't meaningful, just that I'm still learning and growing.

Anyways, I've had a really good Christmas season so far. My BYU Ward Relief Society has been fantastic in serving everyone right before and during finals. My Visiting Teachers gave me some really awesome tomato soup and are always there for me. My roommates are wonderful. I'm going to miss Jamie next semester, but I'll still email her every week!!! I can't believe she's going to Jeruslalem!!!

But I digress. I came home to Bountiful for the holidays yesterday. Well, first my parents came down to Provo and we toured the Carl Bloch exhibit in the MoA. It's beautiful. I went during the semester for my New Testament class, but it was still so great to see it again. I loved being able to reflect on what I've learned about the life of my Savior this semester as I saw each of the paintings. I think my favorite, if I can have a favorite, is the one where Christ is in the Garden of Gethsemane and the angel is strengthening Him. It's just so beautiful and touching, as you can see for yourself.



Then today I participated in my Bountiful Ward's Christmas program. I played the flute accompanying the choir in one of their numbers. I love the spirit that comes from talking and singing about and rejoicing in Christ. After Sacrament Meeting, I stayed in the chapel for the next ward's meeting, because Pres. Eyring was going to speak in his home ward. I'm so glad I stayed for another Sacrament Meeting. As I took the Sacrament a second time, I looked over hymns in the hymnbook like I usually do, but I turned to the Christmas hymns this time. The words from Once In Royal David's City seemed special today for some reason.

Once in royal Davids city,
Stood a lowly cattle shed,
Where a mother laid her Baby,
In a manger for His bed:
Mary was that mother mild,
Jesus Christ, her little Child.

He came down to earth from heaven,
Who is God and Lord of all,
And His shelter was a stable,
And His cradle was a stall:
With the poor, and mean, and lowly,
Lived on earth our Savior holy.

And our eyes at last shall see Him,
Through His own redeeming love;
For that Child so dear and gentle,
Is our Lord in heaven above:
And He leads His children on,
To the place where He is gone.

The Ward Choir sang a number, and a sweet girl bore her testimony. Then Pres. Eyring spoke. He started with the topic of his address, "so that all the students could write it down:" Lights and Hope for the Morrow. He shared his growing up Christmas experiences of helping his mom with the lights (wired in series back then) and anticipating Christmas morning. He discussed that while checking each string for broken lights he was being taught a future skill for computer programming debugging. He noted that each light receives power and passes it on to the next. The lights are all connected. We as people act as lights for each other. We receive light from God and can share that light, give hope to those around us. Pres. Eyring also noted that all the lights are connected, and as people in Bountiful, we have been gathered together. We care about each other; we are connected to each other through the love that Christ has for each of us. We can share that love too. In relation to anticipating Christmas morning as a child, Pres. Eyring spoke to those in the audience who are perhaps waiting and anticipating blessings from Heavenly Father. He told us that God does not break his promises. Things might not happen on our time scale, but God will fulfill his promises in His time. He loves us, His children, and He knows better than we do what we need. He knows not to give us everything we want. Pres. Eyring addressed those who have "been in the darkness and not received light for what seems like a long time." He reminded us to look for the light of Christ around us, to not forget God's love for us. He closed with a blessing of peace, that we would feel the love and peace that comes from God this Christmas season.

I'm so grateful for wonderful leaders of this church like Pres. Eyring. I was able to feel the Spirit during both Sacrament Meetings, and I know I heard the words God wanted me to hear. I know God loves me. I'm so grateful to be able to celebrate the humble birth of my Savior and look forward to when He comes again.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

A Christmas Dress for Ellen

The following is a retelling of A Christmas Dress for Ellen, first heard and later published as a book by Thomas S Monson. It was shared at a Christmas Devotional in 1997. I heard it in a Relief Society lesson last Sunday and it impacted me. I want to make this Christmas different. So, anyways, I thought I would share it with you. Enjoy!



Christmas is many things to many people-from the eager, materialistic grasping of a child for a present to the deep spiritual thankfulness of the mature heart for the gift of a Savior. If there is one common denominator, perhaps it is this: Christmas is love. Christmas is the time when the bonds of family love transcend distance and inconvenience. It is a time when love of neighbor rises above petty day-to-day irritations, and doors swing open to give and receive expressions of appreciation and affection.

If to our Christmas gift list is added the gift of service-not only to friends and family, but also to those who badly need help-then our giving can be complete.

Several years ago, Marian Jeppson Walker related to me an experience her family had one Christmas season long years ago. It provides a touching example of the gift of service.

It was December of 1927 in the remote prairie town of Hillspring, Alberta, Canada. A young mother, Mary Jeppson, was getting her six small children ready for bed. Her heart was so full of sorrow and concern that she felt it would surely break. It was Christmas Eve, and all of the children except for the oldest, Ellen, age ten, were dancing around, excited to hang their stockings for Santa to come.

Ellen sat very subdued in a corner of the cold, small, two-room house. She felt that her mother was wrong to let the children build up their hopes for Santa to come, for there would be no Santa. There was nothing to fill the stockings. There would be only a little mush for breakfast. Just a week earlier, the family's only milk cow had died of starvation. The winter had just started, and already it was cold and harsh.

Times were hard, and Ellen, being the oldest, had too much responsibility put on her thin young shoulders. She had become very cynical, and childhood hopes and dreams and excitements had been put out of mind much too early.

Mary helped each one of her children to hang a little darned and mended stocking, but she couldn't persuade Ellen to participate. All Ellen could say was, "Mother, don't do this; don't pretend."

After the stockings had been hung, Mary read to the children the Christmas story from the Bible and then recited a few Christmas poems from memory-memories of her own happy childhood.

Now Mary sat alone by the dying fire. Her husband, Leland, had gone to bed several hours earlier, feeling sad and discouraged. Mary knew that he felt he had failed his wife and children. She thought of their plight here in this land of ice and snow. Spring had come very late and winter had come very early for the last two years, causing all of their crops to freeze and fail.

In October Mary had received a letter from her sisters living in Idaho. They told her that they knew times were very hard for her, and although they had suffered some setbacks themselves, they wanted to know what they could send the family for Christmas.

Mary hadn't written back right away. She was reluctant to tell them how poor and destitute the family really was. Finally in November, seeing that things were not going to get any better, in desperation she had written.

Mary had requested only necessities. She told them of her family's urgent need for food, especially wheat, yeast, flour, and some cornmeal. She added that it would be a blessing if they could ship just a bit of coal, for it was so cold, and their fuel was down to almost nothing. She asked for some old, used quilts, for all of hers had worn thin and were full of holes, and they could no longer keep her children warm. Also she requested some worn-out pants to cut up and use to once again patch the pants her boys were wearing. She mentioned their desperate need for socks and shoes and gloves and warm hats and coats. At the close of the letter, she had written, "If you could just find a dress that someone has outgrown, I could make it over to fit Ellen. She is far too somber for such a young girl. She worries so about the family and about our needs. She has only one dress that she wears all the time, and it is patched and faded."

The week before Christmas had found Leland daily hitching up the horse to the sleigh and making the three-hour round trip from Hillspring into the town of Cardston to check at the train station and post office for a package from Idaho. Each day he would receive the same disappointing answer. Finally, on the day of Christmas Eve, he left early in the morning, went into Cardston, and waited for the one daily train. He checked at the post office as well. He left at noon, however, to return home to Hillspring before dark. And he left without a package. As he rode home, he wept openly, knowing how sad Mary would be.

Now, as Mary ceased her reminiscing, she realized how cold she was; the fire in the stove was all but out. The clock on the wall showed that it was 3:30 A.M. She looked up at the sad little mended stockings still hanging empty and felt that her heart was hanging just as empty.

Outside the wind was blowing at about seventy miles an hour, and the snowstorm had intensified. She was about to put out the lantern and go to bed for a few hours when suddenly there was a knock at the door.

Mary opened the door to find a man standing there, and for all the world he looked exactly like what she would expect Santa himself to look like. He was covered with frozen snow and ice. For a moment Mary doubted her senses, but then she realized it was George Sidney Schow, the mailman from Cardston. He belonged to the Church, and he knew the plight of the family. He told Mary that he knew of their waiting for the package from Idaho and that he knew there would be no Christmas without it.

George Schow was a good man. A University of Utah graduate, he had years before been stricken with a disease that had caused him to gradually go blind. After receiving a priesthood blessing, he had miraculously regained partial sight in one eye. Although he was unable to work in his chosen profession of engineering, he had found work as a postman to support his wife, Ingeborg, and their eight children.

On this particular day of Christmas Eve, George, with a team of horses pulling his sleigh, had traveled through a violent snowstorm to deliver the mail to half a dozen or more communities near Cardston. When he returned to the post office that afternoon, he was so cold and exhausted that he ached throughout his body. He longed to settle his horses for the night and join the family celebration in his warm, cozy home. But someone from the train station came by the post office to tell him that ten large crates had arrived from the States for the Jeppson family.

It was about four in the afternoon, but already it was dark. The storm was getting worse. George's horses, shivering with cold, were not capable of making another trip. The mailman decided it was just too late. There wasn't anything he could do about it.

George went home to his eager family. He placed the Christmas tree in the living room, and the

children joyfully gathered around to decorate it. Although he was surrounded by happy activity and by the delicious aromas of traditional Danish holiday foods, George could not shake off thoughts of the struggling Jeppson family and the packages waiting at the post office. He took Ingeborg aside, and the couple knelt and prayed for guidance. They decided that the only thing he could do was to take the crates out to the Jeppsons' little isolated farmhouse in Hillspring that very night. So with a borrowed team of horses and a borrowed sleigh with sharper runners than his own, he set out for the Jeppson place, accompanied by his fifteen-year-old son, Sidney. Ingeborg insisted that Sidney go along; although George's eyesight was passable in the daytime, his wife knew he would not be able to see at night in the midst of a fierce prairie blizzard. Ingeborg and the children sent the father and son on their way with sandwiches and little candies and snacks, and hot rocks were wrapped in blankets to keep their feet warm through the long journey.

George and his son struggled to find their way through the blinding snowstorm. Several times they felt the guidance of the Spirit as they prayed that they would reach their destination safely. With the snowdrifts deepening hour by hour, the horses plodded along more and more slowly. At last they arrived at the farmhouse. They were relieved to see one small light still on in the house.

When George and Sidney entered the home and saw how bare and humble it was, they knew why they had felt so urgently prompted to make the trip. After the postman had told Mary about his decision to come, he and his son brought the crates into the house. Mary insisted that the two stand by the stove to get warm. She got some of Leland's clothes to replace their frozen, wet clothing.

It was nearly five o'clock in the morning when the sleigh headed back into town. It had taken George and Sidney eight hours to get to the Jeppsons' place because of the severity of the storm. They wouldn't get home until noon or later on Christmas day. Mary thanked them both as best she could, but she always said that there just were not words enough to express her thanks. After all, how do you thank a miracle, and a Christmas miracle at that?

Mary quickly began to unpack the crates, for she had only an hour or so before the children would awaken. At the top of one of the crates she found a letter from her sisters. They told her that quilting bees had been held all over the Malad Valley, and from these, six thick, warm, beautiful quilts had been made for them. They also told of the many women who had sewn shirts for the boys and dresses for the girls, and of others who had knitted warm gloves and hats.

The donation of socks and shoes had come from people for miles around. The Relief Society had held a bazaar to raise the money to buy the coats, and all of Mary Jeppson's sisters, nieces, cousins, aunts, and uncles in Idaho had gotten together to bake the breads and make the candy to send. There was even a crate half full of beef that had been cured and packed so that it could be shipped, along with two or three slabs of bacon and two hams.

The letter closed with these words: "We hope you have a Merry Christmas, and thank you so much for making our Christmas the best one we've ever had!"

Mary's family awakened that Christmas morning to what to them was a miracle. Bacon was sizzling on the stove, and hot muffins were ready to come out of the oven. There were jars of jams and jellies and canned fruit.

For each boy there was a bag of marbles, and each girl had a little rag doll made just for her. Every stocking that was hanging was stuffed full of homemade taffy, fudge, divinity, and dried fruit of every kind. Later, Mary and Leland were to find tucked in the toe of the stockings that had been sent for them a few dollars with a little note that the money was to be used to buy coal for the rest of the winter.

The most wonderful miracle, though, occurred when Ellen, the very last to get up, rubbed her eyes in disbelief as she looked at the spot where her stocking was supposed to have been hung the night before and saw hanging there a beautiful red Christmas dress, trimmed with white and green satin ribbons. She later said it was the most wonderful Christmas ever. That morning, with the Christmas dress for Ellen, a childhood had been brought back, a childhood of hopes and dreams and Santa Claus and the miracle of Christmas.

From a beloved Christmas hymn we recall these lines:

How silently, how silently
The wondrous gift is giv'n!
So God imparts to human hearts
The blessings of his heav'n.
No ear may hear his coming;
But in this world of sin,
Where meek souls will receive him, still
The dear Christ enters in.

May each of us welcome the Savior of the world into our hearts and into our Christmas celebrations. May we experience the joy of setting aside convenience and personal comfort, if need be, in favor of Christian service. Then may we learn, as did an ancient prophet, that when we are in the service of our fellow beings, we are truly in the service of our God.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Math and the Atonement

Strange title, I know. Today has been one of those days, and it's only 2:30. So much more to do.
Background: Today I had my last math midterm of the semester (excluding the final that happens next week of course). I studied for it, I knew it was going to be hard, I did my best to put in the time to understand the material. But I didn't finish all the problems in time. I know I was trying to go to fast so I must have made some stupid mistakes. I know I won't be happy with my grade. I talked to some friends and got a hug before going off to my next class, but I still felt like crying.
My next class? New Testament. Best class ever, but I still felt like crying. I walked in late, and so missed playing the opening hymn, O Come All Ye Faithful, and the opening prayer, but we sang a second hymn today, There Is A Green Hill Far Away. I was able to play for that, which led right into an in depth discussion of Christ's Atonement, especially the part on Golgotha, where He was crucified. Yes, it was part of that Infinite Atonement. It's no less significant than what He suffered for us in Gethsemane. I know that now. Bro. Wilson gave a wonderful lesson, but the last part is what struck me the most. He ended by discussing one of Jesus' statements from the cross, Matthew 27:46, "My God My God, Why has thou forsaken me?" Three potential reasons where addressed: Christ had to suffer alone (Isaiah's prophecy, 63:3), Christ was still "unclean" and experiencing the effects of sin (2 Corinthians 5:21), and that the Father might have stopped that last part of the Atonement out of love and compassion for his suffering son. Bro. Wilson's parting comment to us was that "How valuable you are, that the Father could not bear to watch His son suffer for fear that He might lose you."
To get that message when I was / am feeling like nothing, to realize that Heavenly Father loves me even when I do not love myself, when I am disappointed in myself, that He understands, that His Son understands and loves me enough to die for me, is wonderful to me. I still feel like crying, but I know I'll be okay. What's happened has happened, and I can't change it. All I can do is trust in God and continue to try to do my best even though I know there will still be disappointing days. I am so grateful for the fact that God loves me, and that He loves every one of His children enough to send us to the Earth, to give us a Savior, to let us live and have the chance to return to Him. I know this is true, and I hope I never forget it.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Indecision

I feel really confidant about that physics test. In fact, I think I answered most of the questions correctly. I studied several hours for it, and I feel like I did my best to prepare.
I finished that test more quickly than any of the previous tests for this class. That scares me. Did I do it all right or did I miss the big picture and do it all wrong?
So the big question is, do I check my score on the testing center website or do I wait and receive my score on Friday?
I feel so undecided.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Doctor Who


I. Love. This. Man.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

I've decided to raise the intellectual content of this blog by posting some of my school papers. Here's my Born Again paper for my New Testament class:

My born again experience is probably similar to many others. It closely follows the same steps outlined by Nicodemus’s experience, but I know that my life is unique, and my experiences culminate in a born again experience that is uniquely mine. I have come to know Christ as my individual Savior through my life experiences, and I’m grateful for the blessings that have come through those experiences.

Like Nicodemus, my born again experience started by “seeing the kingdom.” From an early age, my parents tried their best to teach me the gospel. We started reading the Book of Mormon when I was five, just a few verses at a time. It took us two years to get all the way through, but that was my first memorable introduction to the stories and a little bit of the doctrine that the gospel teaches. I remember having the Spirit in our home and being taught about Christ. I knew my parents had testimonies of Him, and so I tried to learn and gain a testimony of the same truths.

When I was eight, I decided I wanted to be baptized. I had felt the Spirit’s promptings before, and I knew that getting baptized was the right thing to do. It was more than trying to please my parents, especially my dad, who was also my bishop at the time. I knew that “entering the kingdom” was something I needed to do. I was especially excited to receive the gift of the Holy Ghost; I wanted to be able to feel that special Spirit all the time.

When I was twelve, I went to the temple to perform proxy baptisms for the first time. I went with my ward’s youth to the Atlanta Georgia temple, three hours away. I loved the Spirit I felt inside. I had never felt closer to my Savior. I consider that first temple experience one of my first “receiving of the wind” experiences. It seems that I’ve always known about the gospel, but at the temple, I first gained an inkling of my own testimony of the profound truthfulness of the plan of Salvation and Christ’s central role in that plan.

From there, I think that I have progressed in becoming closer to my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. I know that they love me, and there is a specific plan for me. I know the Atonement was a very real event, and that it applies to everyone who will come to Christ and take hold of His hand. One particular experience drove this truth directly to my heart. I was flying home to Utah as an unaccompanied minor. It was dark and raining when we landed in Las Vegas, and due to some timing issues, I missed my connecting flight to SLC. I had to wait for the next plane that would depart at 6:00 AM, eight hours later. I was completely alone in an unfamiliar place, worried about getting home and staying safe. Fortunately, due to an over-packed suitcase, I had transferred my scriptures, to my carry-on bag. As I settled in for the night in the airport, I pulled out my scriptures and was able to read verses of peace and comfort. I prayed in my heart, and I knew that I would be ok. I felt the Holy Ghost with me as I waited that long night. That night I learned that Heavenly Father was directly aware of me and my unique needs, and that He loved me enough to send His Spirit to protect and comfort me. I came to understand that because He loved me, He sent His Son to die for me and for everyone. I became more aware that I truly wanted to return to be with Him and Jesus Christ and my family for eternity.

I never want to stop “receiving the wind.” I look forward to being able to continue to serve and make future covenants in the temple. I want to continue to progress and understand more and more of the gospel of Jesus Christ through scripture study, prayer, and personal revelation. My born again experience may follow the same steps as many others’ experiences, but I know that I have these specific experiences to help me come to know my Savior personally as I have become born again.

Monday, November 8, 2010

Applications

‎I'm told I should liken the scriptures to my life (see 1 Nephi 19:23). So I was reading in Mormon the other day. The opening verses of Chapter 5 just really seemed to stick out. So here they are:

1 "And it came to pass that I [the physics TA] did go forth among the Nephites [physics students], and did repent of the oath which I had made that I would no more assist them; and they gave me command again of their armies [homework problems], for they looked upon me as though I could deliver them from their afflictions.

2 "But behold, I was without hope, for I knew the judgments of the Lord [professor] which should come upon them; for they repented not of their iniquities [mathematical errors], but did struggle for their lives [grades] without calling upon that Being who created them."

Anyways, I think I'll be sharing this with the next physics 105 student who needs a prayer or two said in his behalf.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

To the nice boy on the stairs south of campus:

Thank you. You don't know how much your simple compliment meant to me. You see, I had just finished a physics test on a Friday night and was walking home somewhat distressed about my score and the fact that I had no plans for later that night. I don't know what made you say "Have a good night." Maybe you saw my worries in my face. Maybe you're just that nice to everyone you meet. And then, to stop, turn around, and say, "I'm sorry, what's your name? I'm Matthew. Oh, Jenny, I just wanted to tell you that you look really nice tonight." was completely unexpected, so all I could say in reply was "Thank you." I hope I run into you again sometime, because I love being around nice people like you. I want you to know that I appreciate the few moments you took to tell me something nice, to completely turn around what was going to be a horribly worry-filled night. Matthew, you are genuinely amazing. I hope you know that. Thank you once again for, well, everything.
--Jenny

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Thoughts in the Form of a List

Since I'm a list person today:

1. I should probably eat more than pasta and rice for dinner this week...
2. I don't enjoy taking two tests in one day.
2.5. I don't enjoy Music 201 tests that I don't feel adequately prepared for. On the other hand, Math 214 tests are just fine. I'll take one of those any day.
3. I have no motivation to study after taking two tests in one day, despite the fact that I have another test to take this week....
4. I had a happy birthday.
5. I'm no different than I used to be, despite being older. I like that.
6. Fall weather is beautiful.
7. I need to buy groceries. I don't even have enough food to make cookies!
8. My new blanket is so soft and warm. I like that too.
9. My roommates and friends and family are amazing.
10. I am tired.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Facebook knowledge

With everything that facebook knows, and the vast amount of data amassed on that website, the following shouldn't be too surprising:

Facebook knows when you'll break up

Doug Gross
This chart tracks relationship trouble via Facebook status updates, which show a spike of breakups in the spring.
This chart tracks relationship trouble via Facebook status updates, which show a spike of breakups in the spring.

(CNN) -- Worried about when you might get dumped? Facebook knows.

That's according to a graphic making the rounds online that uses Facebook status updates to chart what time of year people are splitting up.

British journalist and graphic designer David McCandless, who specializes in showcasing data in visual ways, compiled the chart. He showed off the graphic at a TED conference last July in Oxford, England.

In the talk, McCandless said he and a colleague scraped 10,000 Facebook status updates for the phrases "breakup" and "broken up."

They found two big spikes on the calendar for breakups. The first was after Valentine's Day -- that holiday has a way of defining relationships, for better or worse -- and in the weeks leading up to spring break. Maybe spring fever makes people restless, or maybe college students just don't want to be tied down when they're partying in Cancun.

And let's hear it for cheapskates. The other big romantically treacherous time, according to the graph, is about two weeks before Christmas -- presumably as people begin pricing gifts for their significant others.

Mondays, as if they weren't bad enough, are the most likely day to break up. Summer and fall look like the safest seasons.

And, possibly showing that some people's sense of humor is more twisted than others, there's a spike in breakups on April Fool's Day.

What single day are you least likely to get a "Dear John (or Jane)" letter?

"Christmas Day," McCandless said. "Who would do that?"

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

20

I have less than a week of being a teenager left. Part of me wants to do something completely silly and irrational to leave my teenage years with a bang while the other part of me wants to just smile to myself, accept the fact that I'm growing up, and settle in to my 20s quietly.
I think I'll miss the silliness, the giggling, the extreme moodiness, the sudden changes, the many memories, those secret smiles, the giddiness, and everything else that defines a teenage girl. I know I won't lose those things completely, but they'll be muted.
I'm a little scared to be responsible, to make important choices, to be a 20 year old! It'll definitely take some getting used to.
I'm super excited to be 20! I'm entering a whole new decade of my life! Just look at how much the last decade defined me! I'm sure the next decade will be just as defining and life changing!
I'm bidding a fond farewell to Jenny the teenager and looking forward to meeting Jenny the 20 year old. I'm hoping she's nice and friendly and not too different from the Jenny I'm used to being.

Friday, October 22, 2010

Flute Drama

Dear Jimmy,

Sorry, but I have a new make-out buddy. His name is Adam, and he's an alto flute. I love him so so so so much. I promise I'll play with you sometimes, but it's so much more fun to play with Adam. His rich, dark tones make my heart melt.

Don't worry, it's not because you're fat (you're not. Adam is larger than you), or because you're too old (you're not. But Adam is a little newer. And golder.). It's just because I won't let you be the only thing to touch my lips. ;)

Love you still (but sharing my lips and heart with another),
Jenny

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Hard Things

“We've got to learn hard things in our lifetime, but it's love that gives you the strength. It's being nice to people and having a lot of fun and laughing harder than anything, hopefully every single day of your life.” -- Drew Barrymore

We choose to go to the moon in this decade and do the other things, not because they are easy, but because they are hard, because that goal will serve to organize and measure the best of our energies and skills, because that challenge is one that we are willing to accept, one we are unwilling to postpone, and one which we intend to win, and the others, too." -- JFK

Wow. I'm still growing up. And it's hard! Really, really hard sometimes. But I choose to do things, not because they are easy, but because they are hard. From everything like school or dating to wearing modest clothes and acting appropriately, I can say that I can do hard things!

I had a high school English teacher who was fond of saying, "Yes, it's hard, but you can do hard things!" as she had an animated picture of the mythological Greek guy who had to push a rock up a mountain endlessly. High school was hard, but I did it! Freshman year of college was hard, but I did it! Right now, it's hard, but I can do it! I love accomplishing the hard things. I think I learn the most that way.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

General Conference Part 1

So basically I loved conference. Just like every other typical BYU student out there. Seriously though, I felt that the words were coming directly to me. They were exactly the things I needed to hear, the exact answers to the specific questions I had in my heart.

So, let’s start at the very beginning (A very good place to start!)

Saturday morning:

Jeffery R. Holland is so emphatic when he speaks! His testimony is powerful, and he bears it powerfully. I had my testimony strengthened through his talk; I know that I am individually loved of God. I know He is aware of me and my needs.

Pres. David McConkie spoke to the teachers, a career path I’ve been considering. The truth is that teachers change lives. I started working as a Physics TA this semester, and I absolutely love it! I love teaching, I love seeing the light bulb go off in people’s eyes when they finally understand. That wasn’t the only thing about that talk though; I was reminded that I can find answers to my questions in the scriptures, and that I need to follow the promptings of the Holy Ghost when I receive those answers.

D. Todd Christofferson spoke on consecrating our lives to the Lord. That is the measure of success, not worldly fame or fortune, or Nobel Prizes.
And of course, Pres. Uchtdorf spoke on flying airplanes. How could he not? As a busy college student, this was the most clear, timely reminder I could have received that I need to focus on the essentials, that I shouldn’t waste my time doing too many trivial things. As Leonardo daVinci said, “simplicity is the ultimate sophistication.” I should proceed at the optimum speed for my circumstances, that is, don’t try to take 17 credits every semester I’m at BYU unless I know I can handle it and still have a good balance in my life. And lastly, “Love” is spelled “T-I-M-E.” The things I spend the most time doing, the people I spend the most time around, these are the people and things I love the most. Are they the right things? If I spend 12 hours listening to music, I must really love that music. Do I love it more than my studies? Maybe I should reconsider the time I spend doing the trivial things and refocus that time into the essential things.

Well, this is long enough for now. And I have some tests to study for. SO, for now, this is my conference report. More to follow!

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Prayers

Are Answered.

Can I just say how true this is? It is. Really. More to come shortly hereafter.

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Matchmaker




No seriously. My wonderful student ward has a wonderful bishop who has a wonderful wife who has taken it upon herself to be the ward matchmaker. Oh, Yenta. She's super nice and is taking the time to get to know all the girls and guys in the ward, and then having us fill out little index cards about who we are and what we are looking for in our ideas of "a match." Then she will suggest our names to guys who may or may not subsequently ask those "suggestions" out on dates. Wow. Only at BYU. Should be ... interesting ...

Monday, September 20, 2010

Life Plan

....for the next year. As stated by myself and my roommate Jamie. I must say, it is quite a good plan for life.

Step 1. Meet a Guy. This semester or next winter semester, I must meet a guy who will fall in love with me and I with him. He must have access to quite a bit of money for the rest of this fantastic plan to be carried out.
Step 2. Study abroad to Vienna Summer 2010. This will be financed mainly by aforementioned guy who I will meet. He will accompany me to Vienna, where we will fall more madly in love than ever.
Step 3. Get Married. At the end of July, we will get married in a temple in Europe. Either Bern, Switzerland or Frankfurt Germany, or Rome, Italy. This aforementioned guy will have enough money to fly out his and my families to the city of our choice to see the ceremony. And I'll have a wedding dress direct from Italy.
Step 4. Honeymoon. All around Europe, for the entire month of August. At the end of August, we will return to Utah and hold a reception before going back to school. This way we won't have to pay for married student housing before school starts!
Step 5. School. Ah, yes. We can't ignore school. We will live happily ever after in our little apartment / house / cardboard box after spending too much money in Europe.

Can't you see it happening? I'll let you know how it progresses at each step. I have yet to fulfill step 1, the most important step, but I will. Oh, I will.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Gachliliot

Fireflies. I like this song.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

P.S.

I love Provo.

Tonight my roommate and I hiked to the Y. Yes, all the way to that wonderful beacon of wisdom and enlightenment that's just as white as the front door of our apartment. And we made it there and back in an hour. 60 minutes. 3600 seconds. I feel accomplished.

Then we watched Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs. Oh, Flint Lockwood, you are such a genius. But your research is completely ungrounded. It would never work here in the "real world."

And today is Regional Conference. We'll all trek to the Marriot Center to hear some words of wisdom. Should be good.

Friday night I went on a date. With a guy named Justin. Who's in my math class. Who's been off his mission for 2 weeks. 2 WEEKS! Anyways, I think we both had fun. We went to see HumorU, got free pizza at Fall Fest, danced one song at the dance outside, and took tours of our respective second homes on campus (the Eyring Science Center and the Clyde Building). When we were done, we walked down to the parking lot where he thought he had parked his car, only to figure out we had passed it in an earlier parking lot without realizing it. So he just walked me all the way home, then walked back to his car. I felt bad; we could have turned around and saved him that extra trip, but oh well.

Anyways, this weekend was great. I even finished all my physics homework! And I got a new schedule for work. No longer must I work until 10:00 PM on Tuesdays and Thursdays! Hooray! Honestly though, I love my job. It's fantastic.

P.S. I love Provo.

Friday, September 3, 2010

A Nice Quote

“I am satisfied, I know it is so, that whenever a man has a true witness in his heart of the living reality of the Lord Jesus Christ, all else will come together as is should. . .That is the root from which all virtue springs among those who call themselves Latter-day Saints.”
~President Gordon B. Hinckley, BYU Marrieds Regional Conference, Feb. 10, 1996

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Work....

....is just that. Work.

The very word brings endless hours of drudgery and pointless tasks to mind.

So far, so good. The TA lab has seen one student who hasn't even asked a question. So I'll sit here and do my homework, because in a few days, I won't have time to breathe in between answering questions. At least that's what they tell me. Right now, it's just "work". Or lack there of.

Oh and did I mention that I'm doing this for seven hours today? Yes, ladies and gentlemen, that's right. Seven hours of homework. Well, at least I'll be a little ahead in my Calculus class. Five assignments ahead.

Don't get me wrong, I'm glad I have this job. I just wish I could actually do something to earn the money they're giving me. I'm sure I will. Just not right now.

So I will sit and write at my blog instead. :)

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Ratatouille

Last night I watched Ratatouille with my brothers. What a cute movie! Having been raised on Disney / Pixar classics, I thought it was very well done. Yeah, I know it came out in 2007, but it hasn't gotten old by 2010! Watch the following clip:



The darling Alfredo Linguini attempts to tell Colette his secret. But when words fail, well, the following clip shows the rest:



Notice the pepper spray. Colette really thinks Alfredo's crazy! But she hears him out and gives him a chance. Ah, love, in Paris. With a rat on Linguini's head. So romantic! Anyways, just remember to give the crazy ones a chance. They'll end up changing your life (whether or not you're in a movie).

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Say Hey

I like this song. I don't know how long it's been around, but it popped up on my Pandora the other day, and it was love at first sight......I mean note. Love at first note. I like that too.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Nice People

I love nice people. I really do. Especially nice people who I don't even know. Whose cars I run into.

Nice people, you make the world worth living in. Thank you for being so nice.

Anyways, I was pulling into a parking spot in the Cutler's parking lot with the HUGE van and I misjudged the space between the cars, so I scratched another guy's car. Really, it was just paint rubbing off onto my car. The guy and his teenage daughter came out and looked at it; he got my name and number and insurance information, said he thought it would be about $400 to fix. He drove off (there weren't any dents, just a little bit of paint rubbed off), Caitlin and I went inside to eat lunch. I called my mom to let her know what had happened. I enjoyed my lunch and talking with Caitlin (another of the world's nicest people), but afterwards, when I was driving home, I started to freak out.

Fortunately, when I got home, this guy called and said not to worry, he had taken care of the paint damage himself, he wasn't going to call the insurance or anything.

I breathed out a huge sigh of relief.

I love nice people.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Perfection

You know what's frustrating? Sitting down at the piano and playing a piece of music you learned years ago. You remember most of it, you play it through a few times, then you get frustrated. Because you can't play it perfectly. You never could. You perfectly remember every note you learned incorrectly, every chord that you couldn't voice right, every musical phrase butchered by your imperfect fingers. You remember it perfectly. You play it perfectly. But it's not perfect.

Every piece of music that I love I destroy. Rachmaninoff's Prelude, Grieg's Concerto, Chopin's Etude, Debussy's Doctor Gradus, Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata. I love them so much. My heart breaks every time I hear them, because I cannot play them the way they sound inside my head.

In my mind, they are perfect. I can see every note, every dynamic marking, the composer's birth and death years, the double bar signaling the end. They're each beautiful. They look beautiful, they sound beautiful, they're perfect.

I am not. I try so hard to reach that perfection, and every time I reach, I fall short. Someone once said "shoot for the moon, if you miss, you still land among the stars." I'm not shooting for the moon. I'm aiming at the perfection that is always just out of my grasp. So even if I miss, which I do, I have nowhere to land.

I've been told no one is perfect. If that's true, why do we keep trying? Maybe it's because we are commanded to be perfect. It's not an impossible task. Sometime in the future, I will be perfect.

Let me say that again: I will be perfect.

No one can stop me. I will try to reach perfection every day of my life. I will still be frustrated. I will still have mistakes. I will still remember all the wrong notes I learned so long ago. But I will fix them. And one day, I will play music that is perfect. So perfect that the music in my head will match it, and there will be no disharmony. And I will finally be satisfied.

Saturday, July 31, 2010

The Weather



Which came first? My moods or the weather?



Because honestly, I think I'm related to Zeus or something.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Prove It!

I can't believe summer is already almost to an end. In 33 days, I will be back in Provo, getting readjusted to the altitude, the books, the roommates, the college life. In my preparations for school, especially math classes, I stumbled across this lovely website all about proofs http://www.themathlab.com/geometry/funnyproofs.htm from which I drew the following list:

36 Humorous Methods of Proof

1 Proof by obviousness "The proof is so clear that it need not be mentioned."
2 Proof by general agreement "All in favor?..."
3 Proof by imagination "Well, we'll pretend it's true..."
4 Proof by convenience "It would be very nice if it were true, so..."
5 Proof by necessity "It had better be true, or the entire structure of mathematics would crumble to the ground."
6 Proof by plausibility "It sounds good so it must be true."
7 Proof by intimidation "Don't be stupid; of course it's true."
8 Proof by lack of sufficient time "Because of the time constraint, I'll leave the proof to you."
9 Proof by postponement "The proof for this is long and arduous, so it is given in the appendix."
10 Proof by accident "Hey, what have we here?!"
11 Proof by insignificance "Who really cares, anyway?"
12 Proof by mumbo-jumbo
13 Proof by profanity (example omitted)
14 Proof by definition "We define it to be true."
15 Proof by tautology It's true because it's true."
16 Proof by plagiarism "As we see on page 289,..."
17 Proof by lost reference "I know I saw it somewhere..."
18 Proof by calculus "This proof requires calculus, so we'll skip it."
19 Proof by terror When intimidation fails...
20 Proof by lack of interest "Does anyone really want to see this?"
21 Proof by illegibility
22 Proof by logic "If it is on the problem sheet, then it must be true!"
23 Proof by majority rule "Only to be used if general agreement is impossible."
24 Proof by clever variable choice "Let A be the number such that this proof works..."
25 Proof by tessellation "This proof works the same as the last."
26 Proof by divine word "...And the Lord said, 'Let it be true,' and it was true."
27 Proof by stubbornness "I don't care what you say-it is true!"
28 Proof by simplification "This proof reduces to the statement 1+1=2."
29 Proof by hasty generalization "Well, it works for 17, so it works for all real numbers."
30 Proof by deception "Now everyone turn their backs..."
31 Proof by supplication "Oh please, let it be true."
32 Proof by poor analogy "Well, it's just like..."
33 Proof by avoidance Limit of proof by postponement as it approaches infinity
34 Proof by design If it's not true in today's math, invent a new system in which it is.
35 Proof by authority "Well, Ruth Kraus says it's true, so it must be!"
36 Proof by intuition "I just have this gut feeling..."

Monday, July 19, 2010

Muppets......

.....make life worthwhile. I love this song, and Zoot. But mostly Zoot (the guy with blue hair and a saxophone).

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Studying

I miss BYU. and the grades my grades could look like. Library, here I come!

Chopin's Revolutionary Etude

I wish I was Vladimir Horowitz. Then I could play this song well. But for now I'll just keep practicing, and I'll get here eventually. Enjoy!

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Peter Priesthood

Do you remember all those Young Women lessons and EFY discussions where every girl had a list of all the qualities she wanted in a future husband? I never made one of those. So here goes:

* worthy priesthood holder and temple attender.
* appreciation for math and science / education / life long learning
* musically inclined / appreciation for ALL kinds of music
* playing an instrument / singing not required, but a plus
* sense of humor / can make me laugh when i don't want to laugh
* hard worker / gets the job done / I can depend on him / I know he will provide for me and our family
* good kisses and hugs, and not just the chocolate kind ;)
* has a love for me, and lets me know that
* willing to let me be me, put up with my quirks, etc.
* has a plan for the future / knows what he's doing (sorta with the trust / dependability thing)

And of course it wouldn't hurt if he looked like Harrison Ford either :)

Sunday, July 11, 2010

What I Learned

I really enjoyed my church meetings today. I attended Sacrament Meeting in my home ward, then went "down the hill" to my Aunt's ward and accompanied her and another aunt in singing "I Walked Where Jesus Walked." I admit, when I first played through the piece, I didn't like it. The accompaniment just seemed a bit bipolar. We first performed it for my grandparents' 50th Wedding Anniversary luncheon. It was a spiritual experience for me, seeing all my aunts and uncles share their love for their family. Today, I felt the Spirit again, testifying of the reality of the Atonement. I love the gospel of Jesus Christ, the message of hope, the plan of salvation / happiness. I know it's true. I guess my feelings can be summed up by this verse of one of the hymns we sang today (How Great the Wisdom and the Love, hymn 195):
"How great, how glorious, how complete,
Redemption's grand design,
Where justice, love, and mercy meet
In harmony divine!"
I only hope that I can put my trust in my Savior and continue to try to do my best in this life so that I can always have my Heavenly Father's Spirit to guide and direct me. I want to make righteous choices that will lead me back to live with Him, Jesus Christ, and my family forever. I also love my family, and I'm so grateful for the experiences I have with them. I know that we have been sealed together to be a family for eternity. I wouldn't have it any other way. Who wouldn't love an eternity of annoying (only sometimes) siblings, playing hearts, laughing, and eating ice cream together?

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Time to Smile

It has occurred to me that this blog is entitled "Thoughts and Smiles" though lately it has contained mostly thoughts. So here's a smile, based on my name, not me. Enjoy!

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Happy 4th!



This 4th of July marks the anniversary of my family's move to Utah five whole years ago. Wow. We were welcomed by 100 degree weather and fireworks. This year, we had 80 degrees and splendid fireworks.

I'd say the last five years changed me. Who can live without changing? I've become more independent, more sure of myself, more knowing of who I am. (I guess that's a fitting comment for independence day.) The fact is, I'm growing up. In another five years, I won't be the same person I am today. Living every single day along those five years will be an adventure! I'll try to make the most of those days and months and years. Wasting time is exactly that: a waste. With all that I've been given, I don't want to miss a moment of my life with my family, my friends, the earth, even the dear towns of Bountiful and Provo that will be mine to explore.

Today is a holiday to celebrate the founding of this country, the (sort of) start to a revolution that would change the world. What will my revolution be? How dramatically will my independence change my life? I suppose the only way to find out is to keep on living and discover the answers on the way, so, for now, that's the plan. Happy Independence Day!

Friday, July 2, 2010

Reunion

The Lund family is crazy, it's true. But I'm just as crazy as the rest of them, so I can't complain. Spending 3 days in central Utah without cell phones / internet must have been taxing on most of the 60 people in attendance, but they didn't let it show. We got to spend time with each other. Six states were represented.

My family was in charge of buying all the food. Thank goodness for Cosco. We definitely ate well: breakfast burritos, taco salad, those delicious muffins, and, of course, M&Ms by the fistful.
Activities included hiking, playing Phase 10, watching Avatar: the Last Airbender, sleeping, Minute to Win It, campfire silliness, announcing the winner of the Lund Biggest Loser contest, roasting marshmallows and starbursts, and just talking and laughing together.

After the fun and games of reunionizing, we celebrated my grandparents' 50th wedding anniversary. They are so happy just being together and seeing the progress their family has made. All 10 kids are now happily married and having children of their own. Two grandchildren are married, one has returned from a mission, and two more are out on missions. The next oldest grandchild has an almost-fiance, who also came to the reunion. The youngest grandchild is just a couple of months old, and absolutely adorable. Our family is still growing! I wonder how large we will be in three years at the next reunion.

At the 50th celebration, we took family pictures at Thanksgiving Point, and had a nice luncheon with a program by the 10 kids of Mike and Maria. Several of them sang songs and shared memories. I really felt their testimonies of being an eternal family, and I felt that I am a part of that family. No matter what my last name is in the future, I will always be a Lund. I know that I will always be able to go to Grandma's house and find M&Ms and a warm hug waiting for me. I know that this family is a forever family, and I love it that way.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Sunshine

Sunburns hurt. This is true. *wince* But regardless of that fact, I still love the sun.
Why is it that the things you need can also hurt you? They say too much of anything is a bad thing, and I guess that's true when it comes to sunshine and winter-white skin. Because now my skin is a pretty pink. And it hurts.

I still love the sun, but next time I decide to be outside extensively, I will wear sunscreen. Maybe.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Life in General

Today, I was thinking. A pasttime I ought to pursue more fully. And what I came up with was this:

Life is precious. The fact that every life is unique astounds me. No person has the same experiences as another. Some experiences are thrown in one's way, others are the results (direct or indirect) of one's actions. Why? I guess it couldn't be any other way. How boring it would be to know that someone else had already lived your life, and all you had to do was follow the manual to the letter? I'm glad I have the ability to write my own book of my life's adventures, completely different from anyone else's.

My life is already full of experiences, people, places to remember forever. I chose to let some of them in, and others walked in without knocking politely.

I love my family. Sometimes I have to remind myself that I chose my family members in the pre-existance, and when I remember that I love them all the more. I look forward to eternity with them.

I love my friends. I am so happy when they make righteous decisions that will lead them to happiness. I hope they know that I am always willing to help them; I hope my actions in the past have shown them that.

Funnily enough, I love where I live. Although the weather can be, let's say, fickle, it is so beautiful. Do places have personalities? I think so. The quirks of each town are apparent in its looks and its people.

I love my life. The experiences that have changed me, the things I've learned from making choices while growing up, the realization that my life is my own have made me appreciate life, so I will close the same way I opened this post: Life is precious.

Monday, May 31, 2010

Avatar

I finally watched Avatar with my family. Yeah, I'm a little slow. My thoughts on it are as follows:

Jake (the main character) says something to the effect of "Let's show the sky people that they can't have whatever they want." By the end of the movie, Jake has everything he wants. Contradiction anyone?

What the message should be is "You can't have whatever you want simply by wanting it." Jake worked hard for what he wanted, and he ended up wanting the right things for the right reasons. Some of the "Sky People" (the "bad guys") wanted money, and they wanted it quickly, so they used brute force to get it without considering other people and their needs, or even attempting to understand the way of life they were destroying by invasion. They "worked hard" for their goals, but their goals were not the "right things," nor did they have the "right reasons" for wanting them. The movie doesn't even try to address what the "right things" are or who decides what is right (okay, hinted at with the "Eywa" goddess of the Pandorians).

The graphics and computer animation was very well done. The world seemed real enough, and the scenes with humans and Pandorians were smoothly pieced together. The music was so-so, cliche, as were the battle scenes. Just when it seems that the natives don't have a chance, more help arrives, the tide turns, and you know everything will turn out okay.

The length (162 minutes!!!) was evident by the end. I was ready for it to be over an hour before it ended. The predictability of the plot contributed to this. I guess people like predictable movies, because Avatar brought in a lot of money. I don't quite understand how a movie that's just like all the other movies can break box office records. Explanation please? What am I missing?

I heard (not sure if this is right) that the movie took 15 years to make. In 15 years, you would hope that someone would take the time to think about the plot and its potential flaws. I got the sense from this movie that all they thought about was making their computer-simulated creatures detailed and realistic-looking.

Well, those are my thoughts. Don't hate me for them.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Just Haven't Met You Yet

Just one of my absolutely favorite songs. Michael Buble.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Spring in Bountiful

Time to start blogging again. Being a bum in the basement gives me a little more time than I know what to do with.

So my freshman year of BYU is behind me. I learned a lot, picked a major, had a boyfriend, learned (a little bit) how to cook, kept my dorm clean (for the most part), made a lot of friends, and had a blast!

Now that I'm back in B-town, I searched for, and found a job with Mad Science. I'll be an instructor for some summer camps. I'm very excited; it seems like a job I will enjoy doing. However, I don't have quite as many hours as I would like to have, so I'm still looking for another job, I'll most likely end up cashiering or working retail somewhere around town.

I've been catching up with people I haven't seen in a while, just in time to send them off on their missions. I'm so proud of the boys I know deciding to serve the Lord for two years. It's a big decisions; it involves a lot of time, dedication, money, knowledge, a love for the gospel. I know they're doing the right thing and they are / will be great missionaries.

I've also been catching up with old hobbies, since I have the time to do so :)
So, playing the piano, flute, organ have been fun. I'm also going to set up my mom's new sewing machine and (finally) finish that quilt I started ages and ages ago.

If it ever stops snowing, this summer will be a fun one! (I have a new swimsuit to try out :) )

Eventually, I'll go through more of my old high school stuff and throw out papers I'm no longer so attached to. Unless distance makes the heart grow fonder, then I'll be trying to keep way too much again!

A blog entry a week is my goal. If I'm bored, you'll get to read about a random topic. Drawn from the internet, or whatever's on my mind. Actually, isn't that what all my blog posts are about anyways?

Thursday, April 15, 2010

summary of bio 100



A summary of all I learned in bio 100 this semester. I guess you had to be there to appreciate it, but I'll post this anyways.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Crazy Disney



I guess Disney has the rights to copy whatever Disney makes. Who knew?